Day 78 – Weigh In, 243.2 lbs.

I have lost 31.8 lbs. That's pretty cool. Why don't I feel like I have lost it? My clothes feel a little looser, but I thought I'd see it in my face more. You know, my goal was to lose my double chin…lol. I just thought I would be a bit more slim-looking in the mirror. Don't get me wrong, I "feel" better…I have more energy and my depression seems to be in check, but I just thought I would notice more of a change in my body. Today is my 35^th birthday. Yikes, I'm closer to 40 now than 30. (Remember, I'm all about the numerical rules for rounding…) I know this journey isn't going to get an easier, so I'm glad I'm doing it now instead of at 45. But I wish I would have done it at 25, instead of now…

I got a new scale for my birthday! I was so excited to use it. (Don't worry I have compared the new to the old and have calibrated them to match. J) It has weight to the tenth of a pound, body fat, % water, bone density and can save up to 4 users. I opened it and tried to set it up for User 1 (me, of course!) and it wouldn't let me program it with my height, age, etc. I am so frustrated. I really was excited about it… It does the regular function of weighing me, but I wanted so much more…So I'm off to Bed, Bath and Beyond to exchange it. I hope the next one works right.

Well, nothing much different here…Just finishing up Christmas shopping and cleaning the house for my parents who will be with us for about 10 days…from Christmas Eve thru Jan 2^nd or so.

Day 64 - Weigh In

250 lbs ... Well actually 249.5, but I like to follow the mathematical laws when rounding...  lol...

That was an awesome feeling!  Our scale is one of those doctor's office ones, with the height bracket and the sliding weights at the top.  I slid it over to 250, ready to add more pounds with the smaller slide...but it sunk.  I didn't weigh enough to start with 250!  WOO - HOO!!!  I dropped it to 200, then added the pounds with the top row...Yes, I had to go almost the whole way to 50...but I got to stop it at 49.5...I was thrilled, and it motivated me to get my a$$ on the treadmill!  I walked for 35 minutes and did 15 minutes of weights/abs.  I feel good.

Day 64 - Whining, Excuses, and Tangents...

So…it’s been a while since I have checked in...

I have been thinking about so many different issues lately, and starting to feel the stress of the holidays overcome me.  We are struggling financially (remember I was laid off and can’t seem to land a job…), so buying things for the kids is a bit more difficult this year.  Our furnace is acting up, the garbage disposal just broke and our water heater is on the fritz.  

I am trying so hard to stay on plan with my food choices, even if I don’t get to work out.  I feel good about that.  I lost 3.5 lbs over Thanksgiving weekend!  Not sure if it has stayed off…will weigh in a few minutes.

I have been trying to pick up some graphic design work on the side and bring home a bit of money to help out, but it’s very unpredictable.  I really need a job.  My husband is starting to make comments under his breath about my “relaxing” days and how maybe he should get fired so he could take some time off and relax.  I’m sick of that attitude.  Since I am staying home now, I am taking ALL of the household responsibilities (trash, repairs, bills, etc.).  He doesn’t do anything around the house.  However, he does usually work 40-60 hours a week and has an hour commute each way…so I don’t mind doing all of the household stuff, but I also don’t appreciate being taken for granted and being made to feel like I’m not contributing as much as he is.  …Sorry, off on a tangent there, just have to vent sometimes!  Thanks for listening.

Now, back to my exercise problem…I haven’t been doing it!  I don’t know why.  I have no reasons.  I just can’t seem to get motivated to move my fat a$$.  All I have to do is go down about 13 steps to the basement and get on the treadmill to walk.  Doesn’t take that much effort.  Just do it.  Even have dvd’s ready to be watched.  I am just lazy.  I know how good I feel afterwards!  I need help with my motivation.  I thought the family was going to help with that, but it isn’t working.  I want my husband to join me on this journey; I thought we could do this together.  He is taking 3 prescription meds for Type 2 diabetes and high cholesterol.  I thought he could maybe get off the meds…but I’m not sure how to motivate him either.  I don’t want him to think I’m forcing him into something, and I know he has to want it.  So I just thought I’d start and he would follow.  Not working so far.  Hmmm…I’ll keep pondering.

Will post my weight a little later today...and hopefully an update about me working out!